Hey all. Sorry I haven't updated in quite a bit. Haven't been in the best of moods lately...SEVERE PMS. I was really depressed for a few days straight, and did NOT feel like doing a thing. Talking to Sam online or on the phone didn't even help out that much...and he always cheers me up!! I didn't know what was going on! I was having mood swings SOOO bad, from depressed up to hyper and happy, down to depressed again, and then all over again. I tried to ignore it, and go on with life, and for the time being, I was actually happy. Sam and I talked online basically every single night, and last Saturday, him and I went to the movies to see "Stepford Wives". It was a pretty good movie actually! We held hands the whole time, and the place was SOOO crowded...I HATE crowds too! The movie was slightly over an hour and a half long, and when the credits came on, people started to leave, and Sam gave me a HUGE hug!! No kissing though...WAYYY too many people around still. That's all right. Mom took Sam home, and I spent the rest of the evening online.

Sunday, I went to my friend Meaghan's graduation party in Cranston. I had a cheeseburger there, and lots of other good food!! I held her Guinea pig Oreo, and hung out with Meaghan for a little bit. Mom, my brother, and I all headed home, and I just hung out at home. Monday through Friday, I was home basically all day, except Tuesday, Mom and I went to AC Moore, and I got some vanilla waffers to make my pops, and I also got Sam a little piggie bank to give to him for our 7 month anniversary. So I made him some blue vanilla teddy bear pops and the piggie bank...it came out SOOO cute, and Sam loved it!! Wednesday through Friday I spent the rest of those days at home, kinda depressed and missing Sam...so I talked to him over the phone a few times, but I ended up crying a few times talking to him...God...I hate PMS.

Friday night I didn't get much sleep. My room was SOOO warm and uncomforable and I wasn't tired, so I was up all night wide awake, and also excited for Sam coming over Saturday. (yesterday.) Boy, would I regret not getting much sleep Saturday...kind of. Saturday morning FINALLY came along, and I got in the shower around 10:20 AM. I was done around 10:45 AM, and I waited for Mom to finish up what she was doing. Mom let me drive the car to Sam's house when we picked him up, (LOL) and Mom was sooo nervous that when we got to Sam's house, she needed to have a cigarette, LOL!! Poor Mom! So Sam and I got in the backseat of the car, and Mom brought us back home. Sam and I hung out in my room for a little bit, and then I gave him his gift. He liked it!! YAY!! Then Sam and I watched Stich! The movie, and we kissed a few times during that. Sam honestly is sooo much fun to hang out with, even when you don't have anything to do. Just being around him makes me feel good about myself, seeing as though he does make me feel REALLY good about myself, unlike some people.

Sam and I decided to go for a walk, and we probably walked about a mile, and we held hands and cracked up at all the weird stuff we saw. We saw quite a bit of road kill...was kinda funny, yet gross. We got back to my house, and Sam and I watched some TV, and he rubbed my neck and shoulders...ahh felt good! I was dozing off in the lap...it was GREAT!! I was really comfortable laying on Sam...hehe! And he was comfortable too, and that's the main point! Make sure he's comfortable too! We cuddled a bit too while watching TV, and I was still dozing off in his lap, LOL!! Was GREAT!! Mom had to bring him home a little after four, so Sam and I had five minutes more to ourself, seeing as though Mom had to get ready. So Sam gave me a HUGE hug, and I gave him a quick kiss on the cheek, and he responded by kissing me really gently on the neck...WOW...it felt SOOO good! We smiled at each other, and and I told him that I love him. He did the same too!! Mom dropped Sam off at home, and then I got ready to go to a clam bake with my mom, dad and brother.

As soon as we got to the clam bake, (it's a HUGGGGGE cookout where people set up this HUGGGE fire with coals where the smoke cooks the food, including clams) it started to DOWNPOUR like you would NOT believe...it was GREAT!! It was like a waterfall over the place where we were at! It finally stopped about 10 minutes later, and I went and got some chicken...was SOOOO spicy but SOOO good!! The sauce on it actually burned my lips REALLY bad, and it kept burning for like 15 minutes!! Happened to my mom too, so I'm not having that stuff again!! I ended up getting a cheeseburger instead, and that was SOOO good!! I then went off and got random pictures of the animals around the yard of the house. I caught two toads when I was there, and then set them free. It was around 8:00 PM where Mom and I started to get cold...the weather was SOO warm earlier where I was wearing shorts, and then it was REALLLY cold all of a sudden, so all of us went home, seeing as though ALL of us were cold and did not have anything to keep us warm...it's okay. I had fun though!!

I got home, got in my PJ's, and I went online for a bit. Sam signed on around 9:40 PM or so, and him and I chatted for a bit...I had to go soon though, seeing as though exhaustion was kicking in INCREDIBLY bad, and I was acting as though I was drunk, and Sam could see I wasn't myself, yet, he thought it was HILIRIOUS, and I thought it was too! He's such a sweetheart, let me tell you...I've never met any other guy as caring, understanding, and as accepting as he is. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I don't know what I'd do without him. Anyway, I said bye to Sam and that I love him, and went right to bed, and got up at about 10:25 AM this morning, and here I am now, LOL!! Everyone take care, and I'll update again...don't worry!!